Falling
Destiny, Roses & Romance
Part II: Chapter 35

He shifted his weight from one foot to the other unhappily and nervously as he knocked on the door just a little harder. When it finally swung open, a small smile graced his lips and it bordered on apologetic. “Hi,” he said just a little shyly. “I need your help.”

“Oh,” Lucy said, tilting her head as she pretended to think. “You need my help… Now, you know me, silly me, I’d be curious about what I could possibly help you with, dear cousin. Except for one little thing, I think I know that answer to that question. In fact, I spent half the day searching for you all over this town, and do you know what?”

Cringing inwardly, Rafe raised an eyebrow in question. “You didn’t find me?”

“Ooooh,” she said, sounding as if just the big realization had just come to her. “That’s right… I didn’t find you… I didn’t find you anywhere in this entire town… And would you like to know why I was looking for you, oh favorite cousin of mine?”

“Alison called you?” he asked, this time not bothering to hide the flinch.

“No, no, I haven’t heard from Alison, although I was getting ready to find some really fattening junk food to go take to her. Because that can normally make it better. Livvie did call me, hours and hours ago. It seems that you, dear cousin, disappeared into thin air.”

Interesting way to put it, he thought, looking down at his boots to keep her from seeing his smile. “I had to go… talk to someone, Lucy. Alison knew where I was going.”

Her eyes narrowed into slits as she straightened. She rubbed her palms across her arms, trying to warm herself from the chill of the winter air. “Did I know where you were? No, no, no, I did not. I had no idea where you were. All I knew was that something was wrong and Livvie went over there and found one very upset, probably brokenhearted, Alison Barrington! All I knew was that something was wrong, and you weren’t there anymore, and you weren’t here either, and I looked everywhere, and I couldn’t find you! You had better not ever to that to me again!” Stepping out of the doorway, she slapped her palm against his upper arm lightly. “Ever, ever, ever! Do you understand me, mister? Do you know how worried I was about you? Especially when I couldn’t find you!”

Jumping back automatically, he looked down for a moment before meeting his cousin’s eyes. “All you had to do was ask Alison,” Rafe stated just a little defensively.

Once again her palm connected with his upper arm. “No! No, I couldn’t ask Alison because she was so upset that when I called Livvie back to see if she could tell me anything I was told that she was under orders not to mention your name because Alison started crying!” She hit him again before crossing her arms. “So you know what?”

“What?” he asked, seriously considering just leaving right now. Dread filled him as the full scale of her anger at him became clear. Rafe realized fairly quickly that he was in trouble. And deep. He never should have come here at all. He should have just gone straight to Alison like he wanted to.

Reaching out, Lucy took his wrist and pulled him inside of her apartment. Once the door was shut and locked she turned back to him. “You’re staying here, I don’t care how long it takes, you’re going to tell me what you did to that poor girl to break her heart that way! What were you thinking, Rafe? You love her! You don’t want to hurt her!”

“Of course I don’t want to hurt her, Lucy,” he sighed, slipping out of his coat and throwing it over the arm of the sofa. “I already know that. And, thank you, but Alison and I are both very aware of how I feel about her… How we both feel about each other.”

“Oh.” Her anger seemed to evaporate as she smiled with self pride. “Well… That’s good. So… you told her that you were in love with her?” She pushed him down into a sitting position and then sat beside him. “And what happened? Tell me, tell me, tell me!”

That was your big plan?” Rafe asked instead of answering. “Lucy, I thought you’d be much more creative than that! You just give us some time alone and expect everything to work itself out? Like we hadn’t been spending plenty of time alone before?”

“Well it kind of worked didn’t it,” she demanded, defending herself. “I mean, you did tell her that you’re like madly, madly in love with her! Right?”

“Sort of,” the angel sighed after a moment. “It’s… complicated.”

“Well then,” Lucy grinned, shifting to face him as she made herself more comfortable. “Un-complicate it. I suggest you start at the very beginning. And don’t leave anything out! It just takes longer to have to go all the way back and explain. So… What happened?”

His shoulders rose and fell on a sigh. “She told me about this dream that she had…”

“Oh! Oh, dreams are great. Dreams always mean something you know. I bet her dream meant something! Maybe she was even-” Catching site of the look on his face, Lucy smile shyly. “Oh, um, you know, don’t let me interrupt. Just don’t forget to tell me what that dream was about, maybe I can… Go on.”

Chuckling lightly, Rafe shook his head. A sad smile played on his lips as her words replayed in his mind. “She dreamt about… us, I guess. And our children.”

With ever widening eyes, Lucy shrieked in excitement. “That’s fabulous, Rafe! Your children! I mean, ok, so some men would be running in the other direction at the thought, but that’s not you! You’re going to make an amazing father you know, when you two have children. I just… I know that without a single doubt in my mind. And you two are going to have really, really beautiful babies, you know.”

“No, we aren’t,” he groaned, laying his head on the back of the sofa. “It’s not fabulous, and we are not going to be having babies together, Lucy. And before you even think it, it has nothing to do with me running in the other direction of children. It just can’t happen.”

“And why not,” she demanded, anger slowly creeping back into her tone. “Just what happened, Rafe Kovich? Did she do something? No, no, she couldn’t have. You! You did something didn’t you? Rafe, tell me that you didn’t try to say you don’t love her! Tell me that she didn’t try and say that she’s not head over heels in love with you. Tell me, tell me, tell me! Why can’t it happen if you both obviously want it so much?”

“I’ve got to go, Lucy.”

Her hand clamped down on his arm even though he made no effort to move. “No! You aren’t going anywhere until you tell me what happened.”

“Not right now, Lucy.” Staring at the ceiling, he resisted the urge to sigh unhappily. “I’ve got to leave town soon. I don’t want to go, I don’t want to leave her, or even you. But I have to. It’s just… I’ve got to go.”

“Why? Is… Is there something wrong? I mean, evil forces or something that you know I can help you with! We’re family now, you know? So you don’t get to just disappear on me indefinitely! I mean, you’re my cousin, and even my friend. Why do you have to go?”

“Elso jön családom,” he muttered at the ceiling somewhat bitterly. His humorless laughter filled the air a moment later as he turned his head to look at his cousin. “Because it’s just the way things are, Lucy. I… I don’t stay in once place for very long. I haven’t since I was a child.”

“Well, that can change! I mean, if there ever was a reason to change not liking being in one place I would think being madly, madly in love with a woman who wants to have your children would be a pretty good reason to do it! And if you don’t want to leave I don’t see why you should have to just because you’re used to moving-”

“Lucy,” Rafe interrupted with a sigh. “It’s just the way things are. I can’t stay here. It doesn’t matter how much I would like to. Don’t fight me on this, please?”

“But Rafe-”

“Lucy,” he groaned. “Really, no buts. I’m leaving town soon. That’s all there is to it, and I’m sorry.” His tone softened as did his eyes. “It’s just what the universe has planned.”

“Fine. Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine.” Crossing her arms in front of her, Lucy pouted as she watched her none too happy cousin turn his head to stare at the ceiling once more. Her expression turned curious as she reviewed the conversation in the silence. “What did you say?” she finally gave in and asked.

“When?” he asked in reply, once again looking at her. “Before? ‘Elso jön családom?’” He grinned slightly, and somehow knew she could tell he didn’t feel much like smiling. “First comes my family. It’s the first rule of training. Everything else takes a backseat to that rule. You should have been able to have the proper training, you know.”

“The universe probably knew what it was doing.” Nodding, Lucy shifted to sit closer. She smiled just a little bit slyly before pouting once more. “So, cousin, you’re going to leave me? Now? In all this mess with Doc and another woman?”

His laughter filled the air, and it struck him as almost sounding sad. “Lucy, don’t go there, alright? You and Kevin will be fine. You just have to have faith in him and what the two of you are together. It will work out for you if you do that, Lucy. I promise. And you can’t guilt me into staying.”

She leaned back again and shrugged innocently before smiling at him. “It was worth a shot, though.” Tilting her head to get a better look at him, she frowned. “Are you sure you aren’t just trying to outrun what you feel for Alison? You have to go and you won’t tell me why? Are you just trying to keep from getting hurt? Because you should know that love hurts, buster. And there’s no way to get around that.”

“Are you ever going to start taking all of your own advice, Lucy?”

“Are you,” she countered. “You go around telling me to have faith in Doc and our love, but you’re not having faith in your feelings for Alison or her feelings for you. And anyway, that doesn’t answer my question. Are you leaving town because of Alison?”

“No, Lucy, I’m not leaving town because of Alison.” Moving so that he could sit facing his cousin, Rafe smiled sadly. “Let’s just say that I’m leaving because of me.”

“I guess we can do that,” she sighed. “You think there’s any chance you’ll change your mind about wanting to go, though?”

Again he laughed almost sadly. “Not a one, Lucy.”

“I’m still not letting you go anywhere until you tell me what happened with Alison today,” Lucy stated instead of replying to him. “So, start talking, Kovich. I want to know every little detail and then we’ll figure out a way for you to fix it.”

“Lucy, there’s nothing to fix.”

“You’re telling me that that’s not what you needed my help with,” she asked doubtfully.

“There’s nothing to fix,” Rafe said again. “I just don’t know what I’m supposed to say to her anymore.”

“Well,” Lucy sighed with a grin. “I suggest you start telling me what happened. Come on, spill it. Tell me everything that happened, then we’ll work on what you do next.”


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